30 week update

Well honestly there is not much to say. I know everyone is sick of hearing me complain and I don't blame you one bit! I'm sick of hearing me too. It just really stinks to be so miserable :(
But my bestie has told me that the belly suits me so I'm thankful for her lol. Here's my 'huge' belly at 30 weeks. The one that is apparently carrying more than 1 baby that I don't know about ;)


My nausea and vomiting seem to be coming back with a mission. I have been doing pretty well with it for the last month. My weight has stayed steady at 215 for the last 3 weeks or so until this week, I dropped 4 lbs. I should be happy about it, but of course my first emotion was concern. My appetite has decreased a lot and we're back to nothing sounding appealing. I feel like I was lied to when someone told me pregnancy was all about eating and enjoying eating lol. I feel jipped! I'm back to thinking about my first meal after she is born. I am happy to say tho that I've only gained about 12-14 lbs. My heart burn has gotten more frequent. Nothing seems to set it off but cereal is my only savior when it comes to getting me thru the night and back to sleep.

Sleep. That's a whole nother story. More like a night mare as it is probably the most unenjoyable time for me. Laying down is so painful and even more uncomfortable. I can no longer prop myself up because the pelvic pain is too intense. Therefore the heart burn really seeps up the pipes. The pelvic pain I can't even put in words. I just have to stare at the floor and shake my head. The sleep is sparse and makign the fatigue incredible on top of the regular 3rd trimester joys. The hernia, thankfully, has not gotten worse. There's one plus, if you can call it that. My back pain has increased with the weight and size of the belly. This includes the sciatic pain. The blows from baby girl have become pretty uncomfortable and even painful at times. My feet are swollen a good portion of the time. The RLS adds to the no sleep. The bladder kicks are painful. Feels like a horrible UTI. I have my first stretch mark starting and I'm hoping it doesn't get too bad and that I dont' get too many more. I've done real well so far tho. 7 months before it showed it's ugly self. I have at least 3 cavities, my face is starting to break out and my hair needs to be washed 2x a day. I'm sure I'm forgetting things but now I'm too tired of complaining to even write anymore about them!

So there is part of my book that I will one day write. It'll be called "The Truth About Pregnancy - what they don't tell you in health class" HA HA. I keep saying I would be the perfect person to keep teens from getting pregnant! Let's just face it; I wasn't built like the Duggar woman!! And needless to say, I'm very ready to meet my little girl. But not too soon. I'd be ok with another 7 weeks, 8 if she must lol. I am just praying I don't go over my 40. Please!

On a happy note... I'm getting married in less than 10 days!! I'm super excited as we've tried to plan this before and had to put it off. I went overboard with things and hurt us a bit financially but I knew I'd regret another quicky wedding. I feel like I've been given a second chance to do it and I wanted to do it better this time. Guests, a cake, the whole deal. It just didn't stay as small or as inexpensive as I planned. I will just be adding it to my 'Make up to Nick one day' list lol. I'm so lucky to have him and so thankful that he gives me everything. It may come with a smart-ass, sarcastic mouth at times but that's the least I can expect for giving me so much lol. He's good to me when it matters most and that's enough to know how much he loves me :) Can't wait to post pics!

To everyone who comments...

I just wanted to say THANK YOU to everyone who leaves me comments. I do not know how to thank you when you leave them, so I wanted to make sure you knew how much I appreciate it :) It makes me so happy to know that there are girls that still care so much that they follow my blog. I wish I wrote more like I had intended but I have been miserable.
I knew pregnancy would never be 'easy' for me but I never fathomed it would be this hard for me either :( But I wouldn't give up ONE second of it if it meant losing my sweet, perfect baby girl! I would do this again and so much more. (But please God don't take that as me saying I can take more because I really, reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllyyyyyyy can't lol).
Again everyone, I just wanted you to know that I appreciate the time you take to read about my baby girl and I. I hope everyone is doing wonderful. Big hugs and kisses!

Halloween Fun!

I just had to post pics of my Halloween 'costume'! I have always wanted to be pregnant for Halloween because I always admired the belly paintings. Finally I had the opportunity to paint my huge belly lol :) O and I included pics of the hubs costume too just because it's so neat!
Let me know what you all think!!

I'm a lady bug! =D (the pumpkin is too traditional)



My hubby the Henchman

Baby Shower

So... I had the most wonderful baby shower because of my mom. She went totally out of her way and bought baby girl so many things I can't even begin to name them! She really went completely out for me and her granddaughter and I'm so thankful for her.
I was really let down by some friends and family tho. I was upset that no one but a select few had the decency to call my mom and RSVP to let her know if they would be coming or not. My family wasn't there. My grandfather got sick last minute and my aunt and uncle just had better things to do. My aunt Barb and aunt Mary were there and that meant a lot. It was disappointing to know how few friends I have. It seems that everyone who would have truely made the effort is hundreds of miles away :(
The few family and my one friend who did attend made it very worth it tho. I'm thankful to have these people in my life and in Gianna's life. Grandma outdid herself. Thank you Grandma!
I never thought I would make it this far and the feeling is just too much. I made it to my own baby shower this time! What a day for me =D

Oct 16th


her adorable cake
my favorite outfit and shoe set
just a happy moment :)
loved these little soft socks

My baby has a chance at life!

24 weeks! This means my little girl would have a good chance of surviving if she were to be born. It has got to be the most comforting feeling in the world besides hearing all her tests were negative and she is healthy. Now we know our healthy baby can actually make it home. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can relax even more than I was trying to before.
On another wonderful note: Daddy finally felt her kick! 9/27. He had seen the kicks a few days earlier and I was surprised she gave him a hard enough one because she is going thru another quiet and growing phase. She is really active for a few days and then gets quiet for a few more. I feel little nudges and rolls but no really strong kicks. Then out of nowhere she gets really active and kicks like a crazy baby! This is the only part I'm going to miss about being pregnant. It hasn't been an easy or totally enjoyable ride and I plan on spending a lot of time with our little nugget when she's here.
I have been having some sugar problems (at least that's what I think they are). I'm hoping to pass my glucose tolerance test in a couple weeks. Thinking my hypoglycemia has become sensitive after months of puking and hormones. I am praying that I don't get gestational diabetes. Scares me and I so have enough problems :( I still can't wait till Jan gets here and she is ready to come out. I'm very anxious to have her here and to feel like a normal person again. I love you baby but I'm very ready to meet you so don't get too comfy in there.
Me at 24 weeks =D

23 week update

My last ultrasound check-up I think for awhile was this past Tuesday. It was the most amazing thing! The tech was super nice and gave us a really nice session with the baby. She even gave us some 3D prints to take home that are just the coolest.


It was very emotional for me, more than usual anyway. I cried like a baby when I saw her moving. She was doing all kinds of cute stuff and we even got to see her wiggle her piggies. It was all precious. Chunky butt weighs in at 1 pound 7 ozs already! Hope this isn't a prelude to how big she is going to be at birth lol. I'm hopinh for something in the 7 pound range and daddy thinks he's funny to pool in her weight with 8 pounds! So NOT funny daddy! The dr said that all is going great and we can stop worrying. This will probably be my last u/s for a long time unless they want to check on baby again. I am so thankful for all the time and attention they have given to my sweet girl. Finally someone takes my little bundle seriously after all my losses and heart ache. It's sad that I had to lose my son for them to pay close attention to me but I appreciate him even more for that. So as mommy, I will try to enjoy the rest of my time with Gianna as much as I can. At least I can relax about things.

Although the enjoyment part may have to come after she's born. Mommy is still puking and the nausea is still bad at times. The bloody noses, headaches, boob pain, heart burn, tummy stretching and general feeling of uncomfort are relentless. To top it off I have a pretty nasty sinus cold, courtesy of the hubs being around germy people at his day time job. I also would put money on it that I have at least three cavities. I've only ever had one my whole life and have always taken good care of my teeth. And everyone knows how awful tooth aches are. I also still have immense pain in the groin and my hips are still out of whack. The pain of lying in bed at night is intolerable. Needless to say I am very anxious to meet this little lady already, but not too soon :) Looking forward to next week very much!!

20 weeks! Halfway to the finish line!!

I can not believe how far we've come. I am 20 weeks! I NEVER thought I would make it this far and if I could physically do it I would jump up and down.
Other than being amazingly happy about our halfway mark I hate to report I am still puking and having a lot of nausea. It has gotten a lot better but man oh man I really wish it would go the hell away already. I also have a horrible pelvic problem. It started when I first got pregnant around 6 weeks. I had this awful pulled-muscle feeling in... well... my vajayjay area lol. Come to find out it was a condition called PSD or Pubis Symphasis Dysfunction and would only get worse because nothing was done about it. So as the days go on it hurts more and more to sit, stand, walk, lay down... pretty much do anything. My pelvis is separated and the ligaments that hold everything together are mush. I have very little support and the bigger the baby gets the worse the pain will be. I'm hoping to find a way to manage it on my own since the drs don't want to listen or be bothered about this. Thank God I have my WTE girls and have found that I am not the only one who has had this before. I knew I wasn't crazy before but thankfully I have some back up to this haha.
I am up about 2 or 3 lbs which I think is great for 20 weeks. It never stays up or down because the vomiting makes it flucuate alot. But for now we are doing good about that. the kicks and moves have gotten stronger and much more frequent. I am loveing every single second of feeling her move!! It's just amazing and they even startle me when she gives me a really good pop! It's so much fun to try and figure out what is her arm, feet, head, etc. I just really can't wait till her daddy can feel her. We have to work on that lol. All in all things are fantastic and I couldn't be more thankful for my little girl :)