I just wanted to say THANK YOU to everyone who leaves me comments. I do not know how to thank you when you leave them, so I wanted to make sure you knew how much I appreciate it :) It makes me so happy to know that there are girls that still care so much that they follow my blog. I wish I wrote more like I had intended but I have been miserable.
I knew pregnancy would never be 'easy' for me but I never fathomed it would be this hard for me either :( But I wouldn't give up ONE second of it if it meant losing my sweet, perfect baby girl! I would do this again and so much more. (But please God don't take that as me saying I can take more because I really, reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaalllllllllyyyyyyy can't lol).
Again everyone, I just wanted you to know that I appreciate the time you take to read about my baby girl and I. I hope everyone is doing wonderful. Big hugs and kisses!
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Halloween Fun!
I just had to post pics of my Halloween 'costume'! I have always wanted to be pregnant for Halloween because I always admired the belly paintings. Finally I had the opportunity to paint my huge belly lol :) O and I included pics of the hubs costume too just because it's so neat!
Let me know what you all think!!
I'm a lady bug! =D (the pumpkin is too traditional)
My hubby the Henchman
Let me know what you all think!!
I'm a lady bug! =D (the pumpkin is too traditional)
My hubby the Henchman
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Baby Shower
So... I had the most wonderful baby shower because of my mom. She went totally out of her way and bought baby girl so many things I can't even begin to name them! She really went completely out for me and her granddaughter and I'm so thankful for her.
I was really let down by some friends and family tho. I was upset that no one but a select few had the decency to call my mom and RSVP to let her know if they would be coming or not. My family wasn't there. My grandfather got sick last minute and my aunt and uncle just had better things to do. My aunt Barb and aunt Mary were there and that meant a lot. It was disappointing to know how few friends I have. It seems that everyone who would have truely made the effort is hundreds of miles away :(
The few family and my one friend who did attend made it very worth it tho. I'm thankful to have these people in my life and in Gianna's life. Grandma outdid herself. Thank you Grandma!
I never thought I would make it this far and the feeling is just too much. I made it to my own baby shower this time! What a day for me =D
Oct 16th
her adorable cake
my favorite outfit and shoe set
just a happy moment :)
loved these little soft socks
I was really let down by some friends and family tho. I was upset that no one but a select few had the decency to call my mom and RSVP to let her know if they would be coming or not. My family wasn't there. My grandfather got sick last minute and my aunt and uncle just had better things to do. My aunt Barb and aunt Mary were there and that meant a lot. It was disappointing to know how few friends I have. It seems that everyone who would have truely made the effort is hundreds of miles away :(
The few family and my one friend who did attend made it very worth it tho. I'm thankful to have these people in my life and in Gianna's life. Grandma outdid herself. Thank you Grandma!
I never thought I would make it this far and the feeling is just too much. I made it to my own baby shower this time! What a day for me =D
Oct 16th
Thursday, September 30, 2010
My baby has a chance at life!
24 weeks! This means my little girl would have a good chance of surviving if she were to be born. It has got to be the most comforting feeling in the world besides hearing all her tests were negative and she is healthy. Now we know our healthy baby can actually make it home. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders and I can relax even more than I was trying to before.
On another wonderful note: Daddy finally felt her kick! 9/27. He had seen the kicks a few days earlier and I was surprised she gave him a hard enough one because she is going thru another quiet and growing phase. She is really active for a few days and then gets quiet for a few more. I feel little nudges and rolls but no really strong kicks. Then out of nowhere she gets really active and kicks like a crazy baby! This is the only part I'm going to miss about being pregnant. It hasn't been an easy or totally enjoyable ride and I plan on spending a lot of time with our little nugget when she's here.
I have been having some sugar problems (at least that's what I think they are). I'm hoping to pass my glucose tolerance test in a couple weeks. Thinking my hypoglycemia has become sensitive after months of puking and hormones. I am praying that I don't get gestational diabetes. Scares me and I so have enough problems :( I still can't wait till Jan gets here and she is ready to come out. I'm very anxious to have her here and to feel like a normal person again. I love you baby but I'm very ready to meet you so don't get too comfy in there.
Me at 24 weeks =D
On another wonderful note: Daddy finally felt her kick! 9/27. He had seen the kicks a few days earlier and I was surprised she gave him a hard enough one because she is going thru another quiet and growing phase. She is really active for a few days and then gets quiet for a few more. I feel little nudges and rolls but no really strong kicks. Then out of nowhere she gets really active and kicks like a crazy baby! This is the only part I'm going to miss about being pregnant. It hasn't been an easy or totally enjoyable ride and I plan on spending a lot of time with our little nugget when she's here.
I have been having some sugar problems (at least that's what I think they are). I'm hoping to pass my glucose tolerance test in a couple weeks. Thinking my hypoglycemia has become sensitive after months of puking and hormones. I am praying that I don't get gestational diabetes. Scares me and I so have enough problems :( I still can't wait till Jan gets here and she is ready to come out. I'm very anxious to have her here and to feel like a normal person again. I love you baby but I'm very ready to meet you so don't get too comfy in there.
Me at 24 weeks =D
Friday, September 24, 2010
23 week update
My last ultrasound check-up I think for awhile was this past Tuesday. It was the most amazing thing! The tech was super nice and gave us a really nice session with the baby. She even gave us some 3D prints to take home that are just the coolest.
It was very emotional for me, more than usual anyway. I cried like a baby when I saw her moving. She was doing all kinds of cute stuff and we even got to see her wiggle her piggies. It was all precious. Chunky butt weighs in at 1 pound 7 ozs already! Hope this isn't a prelude to how big she is going to be at birth lol. I'm hopinh for something in the 7 pound range and daddy thinks he's funny to pool in her weight with 8 pounds! So NOT funny daddy! The dr said that all is going great and we can stop worrying. This will probably be my last u/s for a long time unless they want to check on baby again. I am so thankful for all the time and attention they have given to my sweet girl. Finally someone takes my little bundle seriously after all my losses and heart ache. It's sad that I had to lose my son for them to pay close attention to me but I appreciate him even more for that. So as mommy, I will try to enjoy the rest of my time with Gianna as much as I can. At least I can relax about things.
Although the enjoyment part may have to come after she's born. Mommy is still puking and the nausea is still bad at times. The bloody noses, headaches, boob pain, heart burn, tummy stretching and general feeling of uncomfort are relentless. To top it off I have a pretty nasty sinus cold, courtesy of the hubs being around germy people at his day time job. I also would put money on it that I have at least three cavities. I've only ever had one my whole life and have always taken good care of my teeth. And everyone knows how awful tooth aches are. I also still have immense pain in the groin and my hips are still out of whack. The pain of lying in bed at night is intolerable. Needless to say I am very anxious to meet this little lady already, but not too soon :) Looking forward to next week very much!!
It was very emotional for me, more than usual anyway. I cried like a baby when I saw her moving. She was doing all kinds of cute stuff and we even got to see her wiggle her piggies. It was all precious. Chunky butt weighs in at 1 pound 7 ozs already! Hope this isn't a prelude to how big she is going to be at birth lol. I'm hopinh for something in the 7 pound range and daddy thinks he's funny to pool in her weight with 8 pounds! So NOT funny daddy! The dr said that all is going great and we can stop worrying. This will probably be my last u/s for a long time unless they want to check on baby again. I am so thankful for all the time and attention they have given to my sweet girl. Finally someone takes my little bundle seriously after all my losses and heart ache. It's sad that I had to lose my son for them to pay close attention to me but I appreciate him even more for that. So as mommy, I will try to enjoy the rest of my time with Gianna as much as I can. At least I can relax about things.
Although the enjoyment part may have to come after she's born. Mommy is still puking and the nausea is still bad at times. The bloody noses, headaches, boob pain, heart burn, tummy stretching and general feeling of uncomfort are relentless. To top it off I have a pretty nasty sinus cold, courtesy of the hubs being around germy people at his day time job. I also would put money on it that I have at least three cavities. I've only ever had one my whole life and have always taken good care of my teeth. And everyone knows how awful tooth aches are. I also still have immense pain in the groin and my hips are still out of whack. The pain of lying in bed at night is intolerable. Needless to say I am very anxious to meet this little lady already, but not too soon :) Looking forward to next week very much!!
Friday, September 3, 2010
20 weeks! Halfway to the finish line!!
I can not believe how far we've come. I am 20 weeks! I NEVER thought I would make it this far and if I could physically do it I would jump up and down.
Other than being amazingly happy about our halfway mark I hate to report I am still puking and having a lot of nausea. It has gotten a lot better but man oh man I really wish it would go the hell away already. I also have a horrible pelvic problem. It started when I first got pregnant around 6 weeks. I had this awful pulled-muscle feeling in... well... my vajayjay area lol. Come to find out it was a condition called PSD or Pubis Symphasis Dysfunction and would only get worse because nothing was done about it. So as the days go on it hurts more and more to sit, stand, walk, lay down... pretty much do anything. My pelvis is separated and the ligaments that hold everything together are mush. I have very little support and the bigger the baby gets the worse the pain will be. I'm hoping to find a way to manage it on my own since the drs don't want to listen or be bothered about this. Thank God I have my WTE girls and have found that I am not the only one who has had this before. I knew I wasn't crazy before but thankfully I have some back up to this haha.
I am up about 2 or 3 lbs which I think is great for 20 weeks. It never stays up or down because the vomiting makes it flucuate alot. But for now we are doing good about that. the kicks and moves have gotten stronger and much more frequent. I am loveing every single second of feeling her move!! It's just amazing and they even startle me when she gives me a really good pop! It's so much fun to try and figure out what is her arm, feet, head, etc. I just really can't wait till her daddy can feel her. We have to work on that lol. All in all things are fantastic and I couldn't be more thankful for my little girl :)
Other than being amazingly happy about our halfway mark I hate to report I am still puking and having a lot of nausea. It has gotten a lot better but man oh man I really wish it would go the hell away already. I also have a horrible pelvic problem. It started when I first got pregnant around 6 weeks. I had this awful pulled-muscle feeling in... well... my vajayjay area lol. Come to find out it was a condition called PSD or Pubis Symphasis Dysfunction and would only get worse because nothing was done about it. So as the days go on it hurts more and more to sit, stand, walk, lay down... pretty much do anything. My pelvis is separated and the ligaments that hold everything together are mush. I have very little support and the bigger the baby gets the worse the pain will be. I'm hoping to find a way to manage it on my own since the drs don't want to listen or be bothered about this. Thank God I have my WTE girls and have found that I am not the only one who has had this before. I knew I wasn't crazy before but thankfully I have some back up to this haha.
I am up about 2 or 3 lbs which I think is great for 20 weeks. It never stays up or down because the vomiting makes it flucuate alot. But for now we are doing good about that. the kicks and moves have gotten stronger and much more frequent. I am loveing every single second of feeling her move!! It's just amazing and they even startle me when she gives me a really good pop! It's so much fun to try and figure out what is her arm, feet, head, etc. I just really can't wait till her daddy can feel her. We have to work on that lol. All in all things are fantastic and I couldn't be more thankful for my little girl :)
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
18 week update
So we had our secondary round of screening tests; my triple screen. And I am the happiest person in the world to say that every single one came back a 1:5,000 chance. She is perfectly healthy and she will be meeting us in 22 weeks! (give or take lol). Our level II came back perfect too. She is measuring exactly 18 weeks and has been on target at every visit. She is also weighing in well according to their estimates. She's a little over 8 oz. It's amazing that we lost our little B at this stage and he was so incredibly small at just 1.2 oz. I can only imagine how he would have looked if he was her size now. It's been very bittersweet.
I had a horrible panic attack when it hit me that we lost B just a day before and I had this overwhelming feeling of "I'm going to lose my little girl". I felt like if something horrible was going to happen that moment right there was going to be it. Once I calmed down and could breathe again I had to tell myself that he's not going to let anything happen to his little sister. We are already so much farther with testing and her size that it seemed silly to be upset at all. But when I thought about my little boy I just died a little. It's so hard to be joyous and excited about Gianna when I miss my baby boy so much. But I know I need to give her all of what I couldn't give him and now everyday I try to put that into how I feel. She deserves me to be the happiest mommy ever. She is giving me everything that I lost with Beldon and I need to be thankful for that and not dwell on my loss.
And a HUGE P.S. - I felt my first kicks after my appt!!!!!!. I think that was GiGi was telling mommy she was there and that she was ok :)
I had a horrible panic attack when it hit me that we lost B just a day before and I had this overwhelming feeling of "I'm going to lose my little girl". I felt like if something horrible was going to happen that moment right there was going to be it. Once I calmed down and could breathe again I had to tell myself that he's not going to let anything happen to his little sister. We are already so much farther with testing and her size that it seemed silly to be upset at all. But when I thought about my little boy I just died a little. It's so hard to be joyous and excited about Gianna when I miss my baby boy so much. But I know I need to give her all of what I couldn't give him and now everyday I try to put that into how I feel. She deserves me to be the happiest mommy ever. She is giving me everything that I lost with Beldon and I need to be thankful for that and not dwell on my loss.
And a HUGE P.S. - I felt my first kicks after my appt!!!!!!. I think that was GiGi was telling mommy she was there and that she was ok :)
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