May 7th

May 7th
Dear Baby,
You are here! You knocked and you are really here! I don't even know what to write tonight because all the joy is running thru my body and my fingers don't want to stay still. You really are here :) Daddy saw the line and so do all the girls who have been praying for mommy to meet you!! You heard my wishes and I can't believe it. You must grow strong baby. Strong and healthy so mommy can watch you grow and hold you in my arms. Please stay safe baby. Mommy will take the best care of you. I will never let anything happen to you if I can stop the bad things. All I can do is cry big, happy tears that you knocked so loudly on mommys door. I know you feel the love I have for you. I know you will grow strong and make it all the way. You are my someday baby and I'm so happy you came home to me. Keep knocking baby. Let mommy know you are staying with me. I love you so very much. Thank you for listening to my heart. It beats for you now precious.

May 6th

May 6th
Dear Someday Baby,
I think today may be the day you let mommy know you are here. My tummy is icky and the pain is steady in one spot. I took that test to tell me when you get here and I hope I'm not crazy. I think I see something there but no one else can. I think its you sweet little pea! I really think you have been listening to your mommy. I will try again tomorrow to see if you can knock a little louder for us. Knock louder baby! I can't wait to see if this is you at my door. I love you so much and the love is intense right now. I hope you can feel it if you are getting snug inside. Please be you. Please say hi to mommy. I love you!

(If this is our little miracle I am 8dpo today)

May 5th

May 5th
Dear Someday Baby,
Good morning my sweet thought. As I write this all I can do is think I feel you tapping on my heart. Are you knocking baby? All I can do is wait for you to tell me. Is that you in there my sweet little miracle? Tell me soon so mommy can stop worrying that something is wrong with me. The pains have moved and I'm just praying you are knocking. I want nothing more than to meet you. Please come home soon. Mommy is waiting very patiently for you sweet baby. A kiss for everyday I wait for you.

May 4th

May 4th
Dear Someday Baby,
I think mommy is getting a cold. But that doesn't stop her from thinking about you often. That just means I get to dream about you more. I just wish you were here to keep me company and make me feel better. Maybe we will hear from you soon little one and then you will make everything all better. I wish I knew if it was you I am feeling inside. I feel little pains in my tummy and all I can hope for is that you are getting cozy. Give us a sign baby. Give mommy some hope. I love you.

May 3rd

May 3rd
Dear Someday Baby,
Mommy is very lonely without you today baby. I wish you could show her you will be here soon so I could count down the days till I knew you were safe in my tummy. I hope you will be here soon baby. I hope you will let mommy know you have arrived and are strong. I don't know what I'll do without you. Everyday that goes by mommy loves you more and more and I wish I could show you how much. We will have the most amazing journey together baby. Just you and me for a while. I'm so happy I get you all to myself for weeks and weeks baby. Mommy has become very sad and I need you to light up my world. Please be here soon baby. Mommy hurts so much without you.

May 2nd

May 2nd
Dear someday baby,
Mommy talked about wanting you all night baby. I think even daddy is so anxious to see you too he's making some changes to get you here faster. He doesn't like to see mommy hurting without you. Daddy loves you so much too baby. He can't wait to feel you kick for the first time and listen to your strong heart beat when we sit on the couch at night. We can't wait to watch you grow baby. We can't wait to know you are going to be ok. We hope to hear from you soon little someday baby. Someday. Love mommy and daddy.

A New Path

I have decided, with the advice of a fellow ttc mommy wannabe, that it may be a nice and memorable idea to write to my someday rainbow baby. I will write to my future bundle everyday until I am PG. God willing if/when it happens I will then write to my growing babe. I thought this may be a good way to deal with every day and month after month of struggling to be patient with DF. Although I feel like I no longer possess an ounce of patience, I will try to take this 'dealing' time and focus more on it, then the task at hand. Let's see how day number one of Dear Someday Baby goes...

May 1st
Dear Someday Baby,
Someday I know you will come to me. One day I will take that test and you will have lit up every cell in my body with hope, happiness and the most overwhelming love you will ever know. I hope you make it thru a very long journey with me baby. I hope I get to take you home. I will think about you everyday until I have you in my belly. I will fight to get you there. I won't ever give up on you baby. Because I already love you like nothing I've ever loved before. I dream of hearing your heart beat for the first time and that picture I get to take home. I will see you and everything bad in my life will go away. You will bring your mommy so much joy and take away so much heart ache baby. Please come to me. I would love to be your mommy. I love you little someday baby. Mommy loves you so very much.